Privacy

My wondering heart will no longer seek
The deep parts of you that you hold sacred
Soft breathing will silence my tear-stained cheeks
But rushes of pain will exhume my dread
Another silence sent through your fear
Will echo throughout this cold winter night
Wrapped up in the lies you left in my ear
The glaring reason to give up the fight
You had me stripped bare -- my soul open wide
But slapped me across my tender heart's trust
With hidden excuses thickened from pride
And one firm belief that one way was just
I return the keys to your heart once more
And hang the privacy sign on your door

Pause

Take careful precaution
Make it all disappear if you must
You aren't eliminating history
Just erasing my trust

Watching Mommy Cry

I don't understand why my mommy cries
My big smile doesn't seem to make her stop
I play peekaboo and cover her eyes
Her tears fall down while she stares at the clock
I heard his voice for a minute today
Then watched as my mommy lowered her head
I put my hands over her ears this way
She won't have to listen to what he says
My mommy says it's her fault, it's her heart
She loves him too much and for him that's wrong
She told me they are just too far apart
To sing to each other their special songs
It seems so easy to me --they should try
To sing new songs instead of say goodbye

Acrostic Goodbye

Anti-altruistic formed words
Created by your silence
Released into my sadness
Over wires, time and space
Splintered tears by madness
That seem to linger longer
Inviting fears and nightmares
Cadence of sorrow's steps
Greedy nonchalant survival
Omnipotent in your battle
On grounds I cannot retreat
During this brief farewell:
Beneath the stars you took me, then
You asked for our love to
End

Perfect Night

Warmth through a silk blouse
Foggy, winding secret roads
Music to our ears

After Dinner

Ice melting slowly
I lean into you
whirpools of water
everything feels new
mixed with my drink
lustful liquids combine
as they crash into the glass
I'm reinventing time
Stirring them, moving them
Motions near the prize
around a ripe, red cherry
your hand upon my thigh
I'm listening to your story
I start to think
Your mouth curves slightly
I taste you as you speak
Your hand upon my back
My body feels desire
You lead me out the door
a rising, climbing fire
Dark and misty rain
falling into your kiss
shield us from the lights
I'm blinded from the bliss
Lay me down before you
dropping to my knees
Press your warmth against mine
I'll look up and say please...

Snap

And after the final show,
I smiled goodbye and I bowed
while the audience clapped furiously
I hid my sadness above my doubt
Back in my lonely room
I secretly and silently cried
while the onlookers walked away
but listened with false pride
To the girl with blonde hair
bending herself in two
for the love of a man who left her
claiming he didn't know what to do

too far to reach the morning
too far to stay awake
too far to heed the warning
too far too simply take

One final look in the mirror
My quivering lips too chapped
I felt my heart break forever
I felt my soul snap