Kidney

An organ that functions
without its other half,
an overlooked piece
of a blackened polygraph.
Straight lines turned to lies
and were carried away
while the tissues rotted
full of decay
Dehydrated prayers
now hooked to machines,
and artificial hope
keeps one functioning
until it gives way to the internal bleeding
no one considers -
no one even sees.

Karma

You son of a bitch
taking him away
to the lies and deception
you introduced that day!
Why can't you just be a real friend
and keep the lone wolf cravings at bay?
I hope fate cashes in
when true love finally looks your way
and you lose someone to drugs
like I just did today

You son of a bitch
promising not to leave me --
then sneaking away again
pretending not to decieve me
Insulting me to the core
not bothering to retrieve me
by asking total forgiveness
for the lies you told to mislead me
and now I have nothing
but six broken hearts that are bleeding

Regift

Am I finally learning how to cope
keeping busy while you "balance and break?"
Perhaps, I'm simply a pathetic joke
and can't admit it's more than I can take.
Silence is the stab wound I know too well
murdering my condfidence.  And each day
that passes into night, my private Hell
becomes the moment that you went away.
My head and heart cry out "You've been betrayed!"
Just like the movie when she can't let go
"God?  Please regift me strength to walk away..."
The love is gone when you can cry no more
Tears for what you trusted to come true
Tears for pretending he'd never hurt you

Nothingness

Oh my GOD!  He exclaimed
What WAS that horrible sound?
That's the sound of my heart being dragged across the ground
He looked down
And why are my hands scratched?  Full of rocks and debris?
What happened?
An accident...she said softly
Why is there blood  all over my fingers?
She paused uneasily...started to speak...then lingered
Looking back over her shoulder with a smile too thin
she surveyed the horror scene caused by him
Her trust had been torn from her love and truth
Her happiness was knocked from her dreams and youth
Her hope had been shattered into a million deaths
and her heart --well her heart had disintegrated
into complete nothingness

The Simple Truth

Secrets unfolded from hundreds of lies
lining the years I would have to deny
to make sense of the reasons -- why even try?
Just count the treasons he committed that night...

Lies became secrets numbering the years
Devoting my nights to hundreds of tears
Unable to justify the root of my fears
Although his deception was perfectly clear...
Remembering his final goodbye...

So selfish and insincere

Tarnished

Simply forgotten? Written off your page?
Beauty and friendship disappeared somehow?
Wiped clean from memories that we once made?
Our past some stale mockery of a vow --
"To love, forever cherish --come what May"
Mmmm. What you said I once believed was true
Until I could no longer hide the stains
of bloody hope from always loving you...
Do not exist in me you wretched girl!
Betrayed by you, time and faux promises!
Hurled towards the ocean deep, my Tarnished Pearl
clamped firmly in your dreams you witness this:
I toss you into black infinity
with all the life and love you took from me!

Hallow

Something wicked this way came
on a darkened sister's Hallow's Eve
But led me to an interesting game
which taught me to believe
that where the truth lies
inside of those words
of pure dishonesty
is buried below
the unwritten books
on how one can deceive

Someone wonderful followed suit
and once crossed o'er the threshold
Into my arms love came to me
and kept me in a chokehold
For years and some I played his game
of love, leave and try again
But through each selfish
silent reprieve
I couldn't avoid the end

Now back at home
my mind can't rest
on every word you never say
Cruel lies intensify
your herbal breath
my hope just fades away

Offense

Neither silence nor defense
will justify the offense
of you witholding
the simplest truth
from my grasp
And your stuttering hesitance
gives way to my nonchalance:
a painful lesson
I learned from you
in the past

Camouflaged

Uncoil yourself into a slow slither
justifying every scale you will shed
The microscopic patterns look bitter
camouflaged in colors of grey and dead
Retreat every step back to the cold stone
where smaller prey remains vulnerable
to fangs ejaculating hot poison
and the pain becomes intolerable
Defend your flesh against the intruder
whose stealth and coyness will whisper you near
Premeditate a quick and soft murder
slice the forked tongue tasting of lies and tears
Beware the serpent sleeping on his spine,
He'll suffocate you with false space and time

Undone

I don't have a family anymore
past judgments and conversations
white lies creeping on the floor
Cutting murderous accusations
splatter across a door
that once remained open;
nevermore

Don't lie to or about me
you see
that which you proclaim
of mine to be so false
is your own insecurity
Don't fool yourself
into thinking I created this mess
you are the creator
of all that you will never confess

In your vain attempts
to be unlike her
you chastise me
for what you were
In your self righteous mind
you choose to ignore
reality;
You are not my family anymore