Reverie

God whispers to me so I can withstand
the reality that I cannot bear;
Missing your laughter, the touch of your hand,
our simple togetherness we once shared.
But something intrudes and makes me feel cold
A powerful force attempting to pull
me back from my prayer that we will grow old
together. Doubts leave me less than hopeful.
The night's icy air surrounds me but still
the wind's a vessel of your voice to me:
"I'm right here, love. Feel warmth inside the chill
Breathe the sigh between us -- our reverie."
No man, or vain tempest can interfere
with God's whisper that keeps you here.

Soulstice

Ah!  There you are,
my long lost friend!
Like a secret filled diary
that has a beginning but no end
Open, waiting with blank pages
craving pencil or pen
Like a betrayed, broken heart
believing it can mend
My writing
My soulstice
begins...
again.

Pink

My heart can't find the words to express
my overwhelming joy and happiness
I keep waiting for the perfect inspiration to write
but it came to me while looking into your eyes tonight
Though you deserve something more profound and deep
these words are only yours to hear and keep:
I know we will hit the crossroads someday
where you take what you've learned and go away
But in the quiet of this moment I whisper with a kiss
My world is complete now that you exist

*Dedicated to my daughter

Zen

I traced the words around the page again
my fingers touching every noun and verb
It brought me to my favorite place of zen
You just don't know the power of your words
How every note and song reverberates
inside my soul, within my heart and mind
Reminding me of plans that we would make
and how we danced inside a perfect rhyme
I followed every tear, each memory
and found that some were better left alone
But finally, I rested on the scene
Where you walked in and I embraced you home...
I know I am out of your mind and sight
but your words gave me such comfort tonight

Dr. Zeus

Gather around everybody
I've got such a wonderful treat!
Dr. Zeus is in the house
quickly grab any seat!
This story stars our usual
unsuspecting Princess Peach
who unfortunately trusts
every villain she meets.
The scene was set years ago
on a bright and sunny day
watching the children happily
run, splash and play
Fast forward past that
I don't want to delay
why she's hurting, crying again
on her pillow this way
He met the criteria
of a best forever friend
someone to grow old with
until the very end
And then maybe past the end
it depended on the weather
that would eventually destroy
their chance of being together...
The eye of the storm
Hurricane Anthony appeared
Don't let go of my hand!
She cried, begged and feared
the worst would happen -- and it did-- sweet, smart girl
He DID let go of her hand
and the excuses began to swirl....
I was tired
Couldn't find it
uncharged, dead and spent
You always accuse me anyway
so I just left and went
for awhile
for a week
needed space, balance and time
It's working for ME
Don't you see?
I feel ready and primed
But what about our plans?
She inquired --and rightfully so
I don't want to live there
or breathe there
Um...I'll let you know...
What about always and forever or--
"I'll never do it again"
That was then
this is now Mama
(Does anyone see a trend?)
I'm alone
I'm bi polar
I'm whatever I am
But I know you'll be there
whenever I demand
food, shelter or clothing
Mama, I'm so sick today
(Do you see how her heart melts
even being treated this way?)
I need water
I need medicine
I need a new phone, computer -- oh wait!
I'm feeling dark and gloomy
Just leave -- and shut the damn gate!
I won't call you for weeks
days and nights at a time
While you sit, sleepless hours
composing Dr. Zeus Rhymes
Mama...Relax.  I love you.
It's not you it's just me
but I'm not ready to talk
But please just trust me
That's what I've been doing
all these years for you
honestly, faithfully
What more can I do?!?
I said unconditionally!
Silence. Only silence.
Selfish silence once more
She sighed, cried and slept
Not wanting to be here anymore
A small flutter from within
followed by a powerful kick
brought her back to reality
Screaming --this is RIDICULOUS!
It's a partnership not a dictatorship
or a communist plot
Love is priceless and rare
It can never be bought
or sold, borrowed or traded
for hypocrites and liars
Her eyes red with salt
reignited with fire
Her belly groaned a little
sounding more like a roar
I don't have to pack a bag
when he shows me the door
I have rights and I vow
not to take this hurt anymore!
One phone call from a friend
thirty minutes or less
She remembered who she was
She deserves only the best
Forget the pain and the double standard
Life is on the way!
How dare you treat me like this
then ask to stay and play?
I've cried so many tears
I can barely breathe
You lied, cheated and stole
You took my heart from me!
And you didn't have to
I had already given it to you for free
Dr. Zeus Rhymes once taught me
when I was small and innocent
Bad people and bad choices
would be certain, imminent
danger would lurk
Protect your heart
Sprint don't run
to the nearest Ocean
Find your comfort in the Son
And that horrible monster
Selfish, immature, greedy one
Stand your ground
Didn't you learn from your accidents
Who can hurt you?
No one
There's no moral to the tale
of giving your heart away
or having it be stolen
in a sociopath's game
You can't love a psycho
who refuses to admit
He's not tired, sick or confused
He's just a selfish di...
Did you hear me this time?
Did I stutter?
I said hold your head up high!
Let the weeds pull him down
You didn't fail because you tried!
Hurricane Anthony will blow and damage
your home with permanent smoke
But you know the precious meaning of life
and that loving someone is no joke
Life is a mix of choices
some right most of them wrong
but you dance through the joy of learning
retrace steps with the saddest of songs
What will you do Princess Peach
What do you think darling girl?
What do you decide?
Support and defend?
Like a clam does his pearl?
Support the Constitution of Love!
Or balk at the past
and swallow your pride
We'll see next week
when our heroine
encounters loneliness
will she again let him inside....
Thank you for listening to the story
Dr. Zeus has some bolts and clouds to send
to the eye of Hurricane Anthony
who seems to have surfaced again...

Dedication

My heart knows you've found love and peace
a genuine happiness overwhelms me
I'm happy for you seems so cliche
to say the least
but I really am overjoyed
For the high prices you paid
that you have found your heart's best friend
who will be with you in body, mind, spirit and more...
until the very end

Ink

I'm proud of you and everything you'll be
red lines -- their names--  were whipped upon your back
But through my love I hope that you can see
one name that still remains written in black
Scratch out the past, the people who still try
to deceive you, confuse you, bring you down
Move forward love, not even asking why
slip past their grip, and leave without a sound
The future is your book, so write a page,
a chapter each day, a story of love
A pen will replace the sword used to slay
your confidence; now draw what you deserve
If you lose sight of what you need to do,
just retrace the name inked on your tattoo

Calm

No longer borne of the face
of impatience and fear;
Just an aching desire
of wanting you near
Old doubts have no room
to become idle tools of deceit
and are replaced permanently
with soft kisses when we meet
Calm I whisper quietly
There you are, my friend
And my faith in your love
surrounds us once again

Overwhelmed

Ancient trees bend and sway
and proudly lead the way
to my resting place of inner peace and balance
Calming my tired, restless soul
burying the dangerous, senseless fear
that threatened my gentle heart with lies and malice
My fingers split the water
rippling hope and spots of joy
clearing the conscience for the endless skies above
Ancient trees sway and bend
and gently show me the end
to the right of calm, to the center of your love

Insight

Truth and deception
fought blind again tonight
How childish are they
when they both need sight

Butterfly

Come lay with me
inside a cocoon of comfort
Dream me into a patience
of  brilliant colored wings and change
Then fly with my freedom
whispered softly by my side
where my memories of forever
constantly remain

Bridge

Long distance miles
don't separate
the bonds of mother and child
they only generate
an appreciation
for the time well spent
during tea time and nap time
Our conversation
is the bridge between
mother and daughter's hearts
held tightly by the love
I always feel when we're apart

For My Mother Mother's Day 2010

Five Miles

I ran five miles at sunset for the view
and let the memories comfort my mind
Though faraway you slept, or dreamed or knew
that I was simply going back in time
to soft mornings with bird's songs and light rain
simple meals at cafes that once were
A safety zone from future tears and pain
but like the roads I pass, they are now blurred
Our hearts continue beating loud and strong
despite the unexpected bend or break
Perhaps we wait for change for far too long
and find that we have made a deal with fate
To run five miles at sunrise could rewind
the hurt, regrets, the loss of precious time

Learn

To earn the chance of loving you today
I'm given a reminder from the past
lost time, and tears --a price I have to pay
to learn to give you space and make us last
A simple concept born of selflessness
but difficult in action and in thought
One coded word to calm my shortest breath
patient beside you while you climb your rock
Then when the moon brings in our quiet time
all worries seem so blurry and instead
of fighting through the hazy, crazy signs
desire rears her sexy, yearning head
To earn the chance of loving you today
I'll grow with you if that's what makes you stay

Daydream

A whisper for two
hints of our forever
Music softly plays
and the whole world
sees it:
What real love
looks and feels like
because we're together

Reflection

Everytime he sighs
it reflects the love
in your beautiful green eyes
And when he smiles
it erases the miles
of untraveled
uncertain roads
between us

Happiness

A lover's song for you escapes my lips
attempting to redeem my missing touch
Upon your face my searching fingertips
will smooth your worried lines --but not enough
to turn the lonely nights into the dawn
where we lay silently in peaceful sleep
Our skin warmed by the rising of the sun
still flushed from our midnight intimacy
Oh how I love your mouth pressed hard upon
my own, my arms, my legs, my...everywhere!
The deepest fears in me are almost gone
as long as you promise me you'll be there
When moonlight and sunlight reflect our kiss
Where time and space become our happiness

Shout

At the top of my lungs
Or with barely a whisper
crying only your name
I find over time
with each missing sign
I'm calling for you
in vain

Good Mother

You calm my worries like no one else can
with soft, kind words and a long distance smile
I felt so alone but you held my hand
through space and comforted me for awhile
Advice from a mother is precious food
for the soul that is starving for answers
I needed to feed on some bowl of truth;
you served my hungry mind second chances
Tonight, dreaming and sleeping will replace
the pacing of footsteps, and falling tears
You gave me courage to restore my faith
and to release my mind-altering fears
Throughout his sickness and discomfort you
reassured me like all good mothers do

For EB

Momentary Relief

He turns his face toward me as if to say
every word that someone else will not speak
An echo in his heartbeat sings my faith
and redirects the slightest doubts to leave
To watch him breathe and yawn brings such relief --
despite the red alarms he's holding on!
Those hours in fear give me the proof I need:
His will to live will always be that strong
A warning sign sent down from higher hands
To reconfirm the purpose of his birth
A Father's love has sent a second chance
Reminding me how much new life is worth
But here I face the harsh reality;
When you made your choice, why wasn't it me?