Regift

Am I finally learning how to cope
keeping busy while you "balance and break?"
Perhaps, I'm simply a pathetic joke
and can't admit it's more than I can take.
Silence is the stab wound I know too well
murdering my condfidence.  And each day
that passes into night, my private Hell
becomes the moment that you went away.
My head and heart cry out "You've been betrayed!"
Just like the movie when she can't let go
"God?  Please regift me strength to walk away..."
The love is gone when you can cry no more
Tears for what you trusted to come true
Tears for pretending he'd never hurt you

Arrow

Lies
    Eyes
        Reprise
               Tries
                    Flies...
               Spies
         Denies
    Cries
Lies

Nothingness

Oh my GOD!  He exclaimed
What WAS that horrible sound?
That's the sound of my heart being dragged across the ground
He looked down
And why are my hands scratched?  Full of rocks and debris?
What happened?
An accident...she said softly
Why is there blood  all over my fingers?
She paused uneasily...started to speak...then lingered
Looking back over her shoulder with a smile too thin
she surveyed the horror scene caused by him
Her trust had been torn from her love and truth
Her happiness was knocked from her dreams and youth
Her hope had been shattered into a million deaths
and her heart --well her heart had disintegrated
into complete nothingness

The Simple Truth

Secrets unfolded from hundreds of lies
lining the years I would have to deny
to make sense of the reasons -- why even try?
Just count the treasons he committed that night...

Lies became secrets numbering the years
Devoting my nights to hundreds of tears
Unable to justify the root of my fears
Although his deception was perfectly clear...
Remembering his final goodbye...

So selfish and insincere

Dedication

My heart knows you've found love and peace
a genuine happiness overwhelms me
I'm happy for you seems so cliche
to say the least
but I really am overjoyed
For the high prices you paid
that you have found your heart's best friend
who will be with you in body, mind, spirit and more...
until the very end

Tarnished

Simply forgotten? Written off your page?
Beauty and friendship disappeared somehow?
Wiped clean from memories that we once made?
Our past some stale mockery of a vow --
"To love, forever cherish --come what May"
Mmmm. What you said I once believed was true
Until I could no longer hide the stains
of bloody hope from always loving you...
Do not exist in me you wretched girl!
Betrayed by you, time and faux promises!
Hurled towards the ocean deep, my Tarnished Pearl
clamped firmly in your dreams you witness this:
I toss you into black infinity
with all the life and love you took from me!

Afterness

His hands and feet are yours, his heart is mine;
The way he moves his words and thoughts around
Deep eyes reflecting life and love combined
distracting regrets we can't turn around
Poetic puzzles dance around his world
I watch the shapes and colors come alive
His universe abounds with rainbow swirls
before the rain appears and tears collide
He's always had the light inside of him
Perfected curiosity his goal
A voice resembling you and me within
guides softly as the Grand Design unfolds
Will you forget his genuine laughter
while you live happily ever after?