Dismissed

My feelings wrapped in shadows
while you sleep through my tears:
You turn your back on me
dismiss those memories
and simply disappear

Nostalgia

Back to the bricks
where it started before
when I kissed you tenderly
as I came through the door
to your open, waiting heart
I was already craving more
of the ecstasy we'd share
on your bedroom floor
You lifted me off the ground
a high I couldn't ignore
and took me to a place
where we could explore
every fantasy you dreamed --
your personal little whore
I want to be back in your arms
where it started before

Observation

I am the spy, the fly upon your wall
Aromas of meals surround my distaste
And words exchanged here don't mix well at all
with flavors from where I originate
Where is the warm light? In darkness how can
You create new dreams or search for your home
This can't be your resting place, though I am
Just a fly in this rooom, and will be gone
After tomorrow, when I've seen too much
I'll vanish into my chaotic mind
Where images seem doubled, harsh and rough
And explanations never have their time;
You sit there in your peace so quietly
Wishing you were anywhere close to me

Surrender

Find your rocky path
with somebody next to you
poetry, pleas and burning tears
will never get the message through
Breathing to you is leaving to me
so keep the full moon at bay:
Shine her promises on someone new
and watch me fade away
There is nothing else I can possibly do
There is nothing more I can say
I surrender, you win, you want it to end
at least that's what you said today...

Silence

My heart has to hear
I love you
every single day
to know that you meant
forever
when you said you'd stay
My ears have to hear
your laughter
it's my lullaby
calming me when
I'm uncertain
soothing me when I cry
But my heart won't hear
I love you
every single day
just destructive, cold
silence
now that you've gone away

Betray

I knew my heart would betray me
It knew that you would leave
and so it stole my hidden strength
and my security
It mocked me as it ran to you
I watched in disbelief
as it forgave the pain I felt
and wouldn't let you see
my face twisted in anguish
me crashing to my knees
My endless hope has vanished
because you want to be
free to live without my love
in constant misery
I knew my heart would betray my soul
by letting you into me

Unsavor

I narrow my eyes
teeth clenched in anger
force myself to feel nothing
wanting to be strangled
by words that you won't speak
and love you claim to feel
so I can breathe one last breath
pretending some part of us was real
My lips bleed out from teeth
that bit into your soul
unsavoring the taste of you
until my heart grows cold