Albatross

Nothing to hold onto
but the thick rope around my neck
constricting my hopeful thoughts
because I haven't heard from you - yet
Something deep inside of me
knows you are there waiting too
wanting me to slip out of my death
and make another bold move
But I've left a trail of questions
it's your turn to let me in
swing my albatross away
give us a chance -- please stay
so we can continue from where we began

Wasted

Your lies tell me
what your hands know
Your eyes show me
what your mind fears
But the truth creeps in
and pushes you away
turning me into
a heart of steel
Where tenderness is weak
and strength is a virtue
used as a weapon
against all of those who hurt you
Your love is wasted
on simplicity
when it should be tasted --
by me

Surrender

I could taste your indifference
on a genuine stiff upper lip
any hope for hesitation from you
slipped easily out of my grip
The conversation paused
bursting my heart into tears
when you returned to finish your thought
you confirmed every deepest fear
But the worst realization tonight
is you've treated me just the same
as anyone else who has held my heart
and drop-kicked it into the flames
A permanent goodbye spoken from far away
with a voice too calm and steady
feels worse than a slit through my trusting heart
with a blood-covered rusted machete

Ghosts

They linger
around lonely rooms
whispering rumors
of missed kisses
and lost loves
into my doubting heart
But quietly
unexpectedly
like a stealth of hope
in the middle of the city
you appear out of twilight
breaking the loneliness
apart

Speedometer

Body silhouetted lust
steamed onto your car
fantasy or reality
the lines intertwine
Licking salt from your skin
beneath hidden stars
and music from somewhere
inside of our minds
becomes perfect rythm
of sex upon sex
Your lyrics in my ear
will bring no regrets
Speedometer on fuck me
engine turned off
I whisper to your eyes
please...god...don't...stop....

Cigarettes

Somewhere between our past and present tense
destructive feelings emerged to consume
Spinning a permanent web of silence
hope spiraled into her chrysalis tomb
Spider eyes waited for signs of defeat
trapped, nestled and wrestling under her dreams
Where soft muted lips unable to speak
kissed pseudo nightmares bleeding at the seams
The blood from one kiss created one less
The heart lent a crutch of patience and kind
But darkness spread far and caused deep distress
webs of insanity covered her mind
Somewhere beyond this before and after
cigarette smoke reignites my laughter

Chewing Gum

Hit me, Hurt me
How dare you
try to close my wound
with unreliable glue
Taste of bitterness
 - spit it out -
wads of chewing gum
inside of my mouth
Replace old flavors
of you --
And me?
I'm done digesting
the irony