Angel Tears

Yin without her Yang
                        Soul minus Soul
                        Pieces of the the puzzle missing
                        Angels arms grow cold

                        Sorrow instead of smiles
                        memories fall to the ground
                        Our woods are burning fires deep
                        Angels tears have no sound

                        Skipping all alone
                        through the endless trees
                        Endlessly crying in the night
                        Angels fall to bended knees

                        Looking at the moonlit sky
                        stars dance high above
                        Shining down upon us both
                        Angels cannot love

No Wall

A wall is solid
                        I am weak
                        A wall is unbreakable or so they think
                        I am broken...

                        A wall is high
                        I am low
                        A wall protects where you shouldn't go
                        I am not safe...

                        A wall is thick
                        I am transparent
                        A wall is sturdy enough for a foundation
                        I am unblanced...

                        A wall is solid
                        I am rocks
                        I am crumbled
                        I am shattered...

                        I am no wall

Never Repaired

A broken heart never repaired
                        everything that you gave selflessly
                        Taken away in the blink of an eye
                        and now you will never feel me

                        I keep trying to find the words
                        that will make you understand
                        I meant it all even feel it now
                        still feel the warm touch of your hand

                        It is deep inside of me
                        the love the strength and the light
                        But I have to make it go away
                        save it for my dreams at night

                        I cannot possibly ask you
                        what you feel for me anymore
                        the sad and cruel twist throughout all of this...

                        is that I love you even more

Window of Sadness

Opening the window to my sadness
                        you finally flew away
                        I cannot describe the pain that I felt
                        when I heard from you today

                        I don't want to speak or say your name
                        this was not some love affair
                        A connection beyond the naked eye
                        and now it cannot be there?

                        Don't say that you will always feel me
                        You cannot touch that which refuses to be felt
                        Take every piece of me and burn it to ashes
                        as you cast me into my own private Hell

                        Can't you hear my confusion
                        I go back and forth with my thoughts
                        But nothing can deaden this pain in my heart
                        and now a life without you...

                        I am forever lost

Falling

Images in my mind
                        Whispered words
                        engraved upon my Soul
                        Revelations lifting me higher

                        until I fall

                        Fear grips my heart
                        Painful truths
                        spoken into my ears
                        Resolutions bringing me lower

                        until I crash

                        Tears in my mind
                        Unbelievable realities
                        surfacing before my eyes
                        Decisions taking me further...

                        until I lie still

Smile Empty Soul

Smile Empty Soul
                        they said
                        But they couldn't hear the voices
                        in her head

                        Laugh Empty Heart
                        they cried
                        But they couldn't feel the confusion
                        in her mind

                        Cry Empty Soul
                        they asked
                        But they couldn't see the images
                        from her past

                        Live Empty Soul
                        they tried
                        And they didn't know the peace she finally had

                        when she died

Favor

I wanted you to know
                        it is not you it is me
                        This endless pain and confusion my own
                        it just took me longer to see

                        I've given it meticulous thoughts
                        can't explain why it has to end
                        Despite the rules and mortal barriers
                        people just can't understand

                        The feelings were my completely my fault
                        Desire crept up too fast
                        You must understand it is only buried
                        from love for you in the past

                        I know it sounds absurd
                        to open hearts and minds
                        but the fact remains I remember this pain
                        from another place and time

                        So I beg of you this favor
                        the next lifetime you find me near
                        Walk past me please --don't even give me the chance
                        then I will never have to fear

                        Losing you every lifetime
                        tears my soul apart
                        and no one but you
                        believes the truth
                        that is written in our hearts

                        I can't bear to think of anything
                        for EVERYTHING carries your voice
                        I want to wake up and find it a dream
                        but now I have no choice

                        I want to end this hope
                        that my sadness will disappear
                        but I know in my Soul
                        I want to grow old
                        with you in my arms so near

                        These are only words from my heart to yours
                        desperately trying to convey
                        the love I will always have for you
                        and the way I feel today

                        No I will never forget
                        I cannot bury feelings that remain
                        I just want something to wake up my Soul
                        and relinquish me from this pain

                        There's no way to end these thoughts
                        I will forever continue to try
                        to imagine us on the steps looking up
                        under the night's starry sky

                        Wanting is just not enough
                        but I bow my head silently
                        Please hear every whisper from me to you

                        and sometimes remember me