Dolphins

Unsure, uncertain as I watch them swim
Under and over through circles of light
Clear waters invite my mind to dive in
No pause to enjoy this beautiful sight
You whisper to me it will be okay
Releasing my fear to take the first step
Their bodies glide faster than mine today
But I fly past the feelings I have left
Upon hidden shores where no one will go
Near places I wandered too far, too fast
My hands to start to slip and the dolphins know
To be patient while I tighten my grasp
Speed, sound and danger vibrate through my mind
I'll remember to hold my breath next time

After Dinner

A sunset long past, and dinner away
We slowly walk toward a dark private room
I kiss you --oh, how I've missed you today!
Your eyes bring smiles to the lips of the moon
Our shadows combine from two into one
Our perfect rhythm --such sweet harmony
Our touching, exploring brings us back home
Our softness, our roughness; pure ecstasy
As midnight moons pass, my strength becomes weak
You've taken my body for your pleasure
Gently I collapse, without words to speak
You promise me we will be together
This past memory will not fade away
I miss your touch more than I can convey

Holding onto Hope

Was it just a dream when you spoke my name
With the soft, tender voice that I once knew?
My heart warmed its beats to a hundred shades
Of pure desire to be next to you
When I heard you whisper into my ear
My lips smiled a yearning to taste your kiss
If I turn around will I find you here
Touching my skin -- do you remember this?
I'm missing it more than you know tonight
Memories are not enough anymore
But deep insecurities must take flight
If I am to find myself at your door
We've made love and life from pure fantasy
Hold onto our hope for proximity

Burned --Out

Lips sweetened with passion
from such a long time ago
whisper cautious warnings
about the history I know
When New Year's lights brightened
I hoped for a second too soon
that something sleeping deeper
would finally start to bloom
Now sipping from reality
an awkward bumbling cup
my frosted lips feel burned
by the fiery taste of love
I drop the delicate china
reacting to the pain
remembering that each year
has always been the same
I clean up the puddle around me
place a cool cloth on my mouth
lean over the flickering candle
and blow love out

Privacy

My wondering heart will no longer seek
The deep parts of you that you hold sacred
Soft breathing will silence my tear-stained cheeks
But rushes of pain will exhume my dread
Another silence sent through your fear
Will echo throughout this cold winter night
Wrapped up in the lies you left in my ear
The glaring reason to give up the fight
You had me stripped bare -- my soul open wide
But slapped me across my tender heart's trust
With hidden excuses thickened from pride
And one firm belief that one way was just
I return the keys to your heart once more
And hang the privacy sign on your door

Pause

Take careful precaution
Make it all disappear if you must
You aren't eliminating history
Just erasing my trust

Watching Mommy Cry

I don't understand why my mommy cries
My big smile doesn't seem to make her stop
I play peekaboo and cover her eyes
Her tears fall down while she stares at the clock
I heard his voice for a minute today
Then watched as my mommy lowered her head
I put my hands over her ears this way
She won't have to listen to what he says
My mommy says it's her fault, it's her heart
She loves him too much and for him that's wrong
She told me they are just too far apart
To sing to each other their special songs
It seems so easy to me --they should try
To sing new songs instead of say goodbye