Achilles Heel

World revolving clearly
around your sheer facade
Are you only fearing
to solidify your mirage?
Unaware, you flippantly toss
your careless, thoughtless words
Into my private mortality
you continue to deepen the hurt
False hope that I carry for us
that someday you will realize
I've placed my energy into
something that has already died
To you my wound is insignificant
It's merely a returning blister
To me it's a ruptured Achilles heel
because you are less than a sister

Vines

The twisting vine around my heart tightens
As green thorns shoot into my fleshless soul
I squint my eyes while jealousy heightens
Into a thought that never will unfold
My greedy love continues to torment you
This selfish angry monster hides within
You'll never understand the world from my view
Patterns of doubt will not let me pretend
The spear I hold is too small to battle
Nine coils of serpents wrapped around my feet
By the tree I hear a distant rattle
Despair lurks nearby waiting to take me
And when the vines are cut by your displeasure
I bleed out my new insecurities

Too Hard, Too fast

Carnal animal sex.
Dissatisfied your need.
A Fuck and go --
Hurry up. Too slow.
It's all I seem to be.
Move me to the side.
Chain me to the bed.
Open up my legs.
Pin me with your thighs.
Force fantasies into my head.
Sweat me off your brow.
Slap me from my dreams.
My body and soul.
Just sexed and controlled.
I don't mean anything.
Loose, casual sex.
Not some sweet memory.
A fucking whore.
And nothing more.
Is something I can't be.

Spill

I really don't want to spill anymore
You just stand there staring blankly
as my tears fall to the floor
And you seem irritated with me
perhaps view it as a chore
to help wash away my sadness
so often you choose to ignore
the simple words you could say
instead of attempting a false rapport
I won't ask you for your help
as the mess travels under the door
I'll clean up my own emotions
Just like I've done before

Returning Thoughts

I sit and stare behind a broken glass
Just waiting for some sound to make you move
My heart retreats with longing for the past
Although your lawful mind will disapprove
Of songs I sing to lighten this dark night
And dreams I call to take away my hurt
Returning thoughts to justify my rights
When jealousies and heightened fears return
And there someone lies sleeping in a room
Oblivious to how you really feel
An unborn child waiting in the womb
Nearsighted to the cold life might reveal
The stars divide inside their space above
I wonder why you show me less than love

Obsidian

The moon casts down her uncomfortable gaze
knowing I blame her for our loss of time
Like ice cubes melting slowly in the shade,
minutes disappear with seconds behind
We stand with patience where we first began
but everything changes around our hearts
Constantly reaching up for stronger hands
to pull us back from being far apart
Airplane lights twinkling high in the sky
make me think forever has brought you back;
They reflect a tear in my doubting eyes
and my bright, shimmering hope fades to black
I'm left alone holding the midnight rain
under the clouds of obsidian grey

Weaning

He screams and cries
as I take him to his own bed
But it feels worse to me
because it's the first step
to weaning you away
from my heart and my head