Squeeze

If you squeeze the crystal
around the center
with both hands
on either side
very tightly
but hold on gently
The glass will stay
in tact, safe and solid
held in your hands
But if you move your fingers
even slightly apart
I will shatter
shards of sadness
all over your carelessness
deep into your skin

And the blood will start

Aspergers

I stared at the floor
for a second time
though it isn't fatal --
it's a shocking line
It explains so many mysteries
that I didn't notice before
But my scared, selfish heart
wanted to run out the door
and scream I can't do this once more!
One moved around us
as if we were trees
those not so subtle movements
put my mind at un-ease
Chatting to himself
about heroes in his head
The other kept repeating
what I just had said
And continued to ignore
all of my learned patience
to slowly encourage or solicit
some simple conversation
My ears strained to focus
on all of the "next steps"
But my emotions were scattered
on the path of strength I had recently swept
His voice trailed off sympathetically
to reassure my falling tears
But nothing tonight, alone and depressed
will soothe my deepest fears

I didn't see it for eight whole years...

Lay Down Your Head

My sweet sleepy baby, lay down your head
The moon will bring you her soft lullaby
Just lie here with me so warm in our bed
And soon, the rising sun will greet the sky

My sweet sleepy darling, go to your dreams
I'll quietly soothe you and sing to you
Watch the raindrops fall from an angel's wings
And turn into a flower's morning dew

My sweet sleepy child, lay down your head
Now I have spoken this soft lullaby
Take with you tomorrow, all that I've said
Long after darkness has bid his goodbye

Take with you tomorrow all of my joy
Wrapped in this blanket, my sweet baby boy

Possible Simplicity

Sometimes when you see my face
you think I'm happier this way
My hopes and dreams wither to waste
and thoughts of you may soon betray
This never after that has become
some bitter ending to give away
and certain that I'm prepared to run
You suddenly find the words to say
Please stay
I found it, felt it, need your touch
through emptiness and cruelty
Inside the promise of your trust
It finally occured to me
You will never have to leave
If I give you all of me
Rainy days will wet my smile
cloudy nights bring sheltered sleep
Even if only for a shortened while
I'll cherish these moments of ours to keep
My heart will treasure all of these
and stay forever...
if you simply love me

Complete Parts

I sit here so longingly
knees pressed to my chest
looking out of the window
tiny sighs replacing my breath
Watching you somewhere
through the sunsetting sky
acutely in-tune
with the passing of time
This is the evening
you will walk into my heart
coming home finally
after being so far apart
In one passionate motion
you will lay me down,
press your body against mine
without making a sound
And tell me with your eyes
how desperately you need me
rebirth us with soft touches
a new calm and security
Reassure me with your lips
You want this
Reaching out past my silhouette
desire lined in the dark
Feel my heart collapse
into a million complete parts

The Runner

Runner's legs grow weak
Inhale you, exhale me
Breathing side by side

The Wish

I looked up at the moon
through one single
slightly swaying branch
Felt the wind glance sideways
to the city sky
filled with dancing stars
Distracted by the millions of cars
and people traveling nowhere
In this boxed world
of memories and futures
humans made from Godlike foam
I desperately wondered aloud
to the silent, patient lights
How long will it be
until I'm inside of your arms
pointing at the one twinkling star
I wished upon
to bring you home