Repent

Those three treasured words
often seem common or trite
spoken in the heat of passion
or as closure to a painful fight
But taken from your rigid lips
or given just the same
mean more to my disoriented heart
than I can ever explain
I've pushed you miles further
than you can safely swim home
It's too deep to search your sea
but my heart needs to atone
That numbing, emotionless hum
of nothing bleeding through your veins
that miscalculated passionless sum
from too much anger and repeated pain

Would that I had tamed the oceans
and prayed for more rain

As the buoy floats above you
but your arms and legs are spent
I'll find a way to hold you up
I'll find a way to repent

And if you tread better without me
I'll dive deepest into my own
Forever remembering my wrongful trespass
upon your unsuspecting soul

For SPM

Mistress

I wrote more thoughts of us today
and piled them in that darkened room
You know the one with the sign on the door
"Just leave them here, I will be back soon"
So the pages and pages of you and me
will collect in a home filled with emptiness
And the love borne from poetry and memory
will fade, then disappear into nothingness
As I close this tattered book tonight
I huddle silently behind your closed door
A living proof of the author's right
My pen is not mightier than your whore

Exility

My soul lies somewhere inside of those dreams
Where I met you under the moonlight's taste
Your soul floats close to the rising peaks
Of soft moving streams and sodden faith
The sleepy waking eye blinks twice
My mind is consumed with infinite vines
Green blooms entangled with wintery ice
Lacking seasons to nurture the complex designs
My soul lies in memories beneath lover's sheets
Where touches and whispers invigorate my heart
Your soul is a beggar at obscurity's feet
Where head, heart and body remain far apart;

Behind ignorant eyes of tranquility
You cast none of this into my exility

Absolution

Angels watch but never speak
They linger here in cause and curse
I beg for mercy at their feet -
My pain proclaimed in secret verse
With holy hands they let me breed
Then wash them of the world I knew
Why do they stand so silently
And watch me fall away from you?
Angels eyes reflect the night
Hidden tears fall upon my face
Misguided by their fading light
I fall again from saving grace

Blue lips turn cold from misery
Absolution, breathe new life into me!

Veiled

I tried so hard to remove the veil
Perseverance of love without protection
But live-giving whispers turned deathly pale
And I stole from you your last breath of affection
I realize now I cannot fully unveil
the innocence of you hidden from me
In knowing this I surrender this will
To love you past impossiblity

Cradle

The softest breath upon my neck
Reminds me of your velvet kiss
The slightest smile upon his face
Returns me to your loving arms
His shyness is the depth of you
That my own heart cannot retain
Sweet joy he knows of you and me
And when he cries it is your pain
Night brings dreams of your soft voice
Those songs you sang before he knew
Day will be his favorite place
To write and send his thoughts of you

He's growing stronger by the day
When will you find the time to stay

Nothing

Nothing like the black hole of night,
Nor bright and clear like the comforting day
A simple and motionless stranded kite -
Praying for something to take it away
Nothing like the words you spoke
Drunk with fermenting adrenaline
Much more like the stubborn oak
With propagating timberline
But silent and distant as the wind
That breathes nowhere around me
Until the suffering tempest moves past,
You abandon me where you found me
When you finally reach out your hand,
I'm lost among the grains of sand