Transference

The subtle,
sensual,
secret transition
from indefinitely drawn...
to irreparably doomed

Therapy

It started out as conversations will
some details shared, lost memories revealed
Just looking for forgiveness and to fill
infinite breaks my heart can't seem to heal
Those blessed waters that replenish faith
cover my body, soul and broken mind
Refreshing tears...no...more like tidal waves
drown all of my mistakes but leave behind
A place of solitude with one stranger
Confusing crossroads and revelations
A calm voice turns me away from danger -
verbally leading me to salvation
The voice that whispers "you'll never be seen..."
is the opposite of who's guiding me

Forgiveness

Thank  you, Jesus
for bringing me home
to your heart and the arms
that have carried me far
Please forgive
the worst of the best of me
that pierced through your skin
so mercilessly
With your Grace and Light
I reside with you
and will always remember
to permanently reject
the things I will never do

Resist

Rebel against my struggling heart's content!
Resist temptation of your loving smile!
I don't forgive what you cannot repent --
in excess of a trillion missing miles.
The risk of looking up to hope again
with puzzles and pyschosis upside down
Relenting to my God who always wins
a restlesness night with blinding sight abounds
And who am I to ask for so much more
When nothing that I've given comes right back?
The barriers crash down the broken door
futility has come to me at last
Release the grip upon my broken heart
Return, my soul,  to your innocent start

Blush

Stitches jagged but mended
heart ferociously extended
green grass comforts my lazy feet
Sunrise blushes "Dawn has broken"
while I softly sing and hold her
Father, you have made this moment complete

Colors

Why did you take the easy road?
Anyone can smile and laugh!
When I was strong and happy,
we walked the same path.
But when I was fed up and unhappy,
you were nowhere to be found
I braved the fight scared and alone
even faced the final round...
You criticized my sight
You made me lose my ground!
You blamed me for giving up
and not hanging in there until the end
So you wanted me to stay miserable and lost?
NO! Staying would mean giving in...
And on my deathbed looking back...
No family, no support...just a few friends
Begging to erase my mistakes
Dying painfully among my sins.
And so I made my choice...
I chose red instead of blue
In poetry that simply means
I chose him not you...
Red for the infinite passion
I felt to live my life
Red for the missing kiss
while staring deep into his eyes
Looking straight into my soul
finding me whole again
Red for my determination
to change the future end...
Blue I firmly denied -
no sadness, secrets or pain!
Those two colors I fought against
invisible, divisible shades
Red is the color I chose to follow
When everyone walked away.
But sadness is the color of my tears tonight
mixed with the blood from our bitter fight.

Screen

I am a child of God and Light. 

Darkness mocks the pure of heart and mind

It's all from the same mix – evil’s spite -

Shadowing us closely through closed blinds.

It seeps into the mind and hardens warped desires.

It filters your reality and haunts your dreams. 

It whispers...beckons...calls to you from the fires

I'm just on the other side....

and salivates through the hole in the screen