Nothing

Alone, tonight
as I stare out my window
My soul turns colder
than the ice suffocating the trees
Dropping to my knees to pray
-just one please-
I wait for the light to appear
My eyes grow wider and dilate
as I anticipate
Blurred by my tears
I lean against the wall
heartbroken --you are gone
and there is nothing there at all
Not one word
Where have you been?
How can you stay so silent?
And then futility:
My heartbeat echoes
this familiar end
I-did-it-before
I-could-do-it-again