You, Once

I feel a sadness I cannot explain
You were there once, alone, oh so alone
That same sorrow now has become my pain
Your pale midnight tears have become my own
Life changed for you when you left for awhile
Someone became what you needed to hold
And I, a stop before reaching her smile
Will be forgotten and left to grow old
Fear rises again and you search for me?
I'm always there --where you left me before
Hoping and waiting for you to believe
I'll stay with you if you open the door
Do you not remember feeling this way?
You should have felt it in my voice today

Another Season

Embers burn slowly under the autumn
Leaves combine tightly inside of a breeze
Pale dusk of fall releases the morning
Dark green turns to orange announcing her grief
Summer heat's chatter has now gone away
With it silent conversations resume
October memories can never stay
And past summer songs have lost their soft tune
I run past the smoked scent of our future
Inhaling the high of the fire's flame
Redeemed by serenity of nature
For one moment, I remember your name
Regardless of these swiftly passing years
Each month brings a season of endless tears

"Love"

Love sets a trap that I cannot escape
Whatever I do, it will turn out wrong
I don't have a chance, he decides my fate
His anger weakens me; it's far too strong
The blood never dries where he bites my hand
When I gently reach out to soothe his fears
Love hurts me so much - I don't understand
He seems to need me until I'm too near
And when he finishes torturing me
I see him pacing outside of my door
He shows no remorse, feels no sympathy
Knowing how quickly I'll be back for more
Love growls fiercly at me You'll never leave
No matter how much I take and deceive

Reservation

I am your complication
so treat me like an altered plan
and just cancel me
like an unwanted dinner reservation

I Wish

I wish you would wake up
in the middle of the night
the way you used to
And moved by the dim light
flickering thoughts waiting
in the distant sky
love, hope, peace
found inside of our minds
As you stare longily
out the window
imagining my smile
I wish you would wake up
right now
for just a little while

Missing You

Mother without her child
Igloo without her eskimo
Sheep without her flock
Spider without her web
Ice without her water
Nest without her bird
Garden without her blooms
Yellow without her blue
Orange without her peel
Umbrella, broken without her rain
This is how I feel

Pure Toxicity

I am a double sided prop to you
a challenging, sexual deviant
beneath your full moon
but I am a nobody
under your light of day
A painful, dreaded obligation
you constantly try to escape
and evade while baiting
my shaking, trembling finger
with a hook shiny and sharp
like the blade in a blender
You twist and turn my flesh
to loosen my last grip
the noose around my neck
is finally starting to slip...up
Like a snake constricting my breath
you coil and watch me squirm
stumbling over wrong answers
chastising me while I burn
and hurt with every tone
you carelessly shoot at me
I can't take anymore of your venom
it's pure toxicity

Pseudo-Fairytale

Some days I yearn to break out of my skin
On long, lonely nights, I miss you too much
These heavy thoughts what will be, what has been
Can only be lifted with your soft touch
When you cradle me, the world disappears
The lullaby moment consumes my soul
But when darkness falls, it levitates fears
That will haunt my heart until I grow old
If I could revert to the little girl
Dreaming of oceans to take me away
Holding one shell with a tiny, white pearl
I'd trade it for love to find me and stay
Some days feel endless, confusing and pale
Like an unfinished pseudo-fairytale

Guardian Angel

Upon my tranquil form, so motionless
My angel's touch is a cradle of mist
I try to whisper but start to regress
Into my world of dreams that have been missed
But words elude me, and I can't ignore
The sweet lullaby some angel will sing
Has he been resting beyond my door?
Will he guide me to what daylight may bring?
I try to ask the questions as I fade
Into the deep realms of midnight slumber
But wanting to know more, I stay awake
And lie there in the stillness and wonder
My angel answers quietly so near
"To sleep for you is not why I am here"

*Inspired by Kristin's original sonnet