Friday, October 22, 2004

Wade

A strong and steadfast friend
                        I know I've found in you
                        A warm and caring soul
                        someone who will be true

                        I'd walk alone for many miles
                        blinded by the haze
                        without your faith beneath my steps
                        Id' be lost within the maze

                        Take my hand so you will know
                        the sincerity in my song
                        Hold me close if I should fall
                        as I journey the long way home

                        I bow my head in silence
                        take your words and feel
                        This friendship growing steadily
                        into something lasting and real ~

An Awakening

An awakening this morning
                        stirring deep inside
                        Feelings of strength and understanding
                        I no longer want to hide

                        Smiling softly towards the future
                        For its shadow truly knows my heart
                        Resigned to create changes
                        and become a brand new start

                        Patiently and peacefully
                        I ride the storm and wrath
                        always with you by my side
                        I continue to walk this path

                        Learning and revealing
                        what my soul should really be
                        Knowing it will be okay
                        if you still believe in me

                        The trees whisper my calling
                        Moon rises for my dreams
                        Days and nights are
                        time and thoughts
                        Nothing is what it seems

                        Take my promise and hold it true
                        forever somewhere near
                        I've opened my eyes and still see you
                        and can conquer all the fear

                        It's there behind the dark vast sky
                        and carried on the wind
                        The stars remain my watchful eye
                        over possibility and infinite end

                        How difficult to find a way
                        to give back the gift of you
                        You have my words and so much more
                        please feel me speak the truth

                        Beyond what was expected --
                        though it never really was
                        A rare and priceless connection
                        where dreams begin above

                        Needs no explanation
                        or reason for why it exists
                        Deeply wrapped in passion
                        sent with an invisible kiss

                        Time is slowly beckoning me
                        to live but wait with wonder
                        Neither dim grey skies nor blackening clouds
                        can chase away life's thunder

                        Roaring like the tiger's cry
                        Flying freely as a bird
                        This became my song to you

                        and is now my final word ~

Monday, October 4, 2004

Fairytale

Once upon a Fairytale
                        in a Land unlike our own
                        There stood a Palace of Strength and Love
                        surrounded by water and stone

                        Majestic dragons of distant lifetimes
                        glide swoop and perpetually dive
                        Impish Faeries with sparkling eyes
                        dance 'round the moons and come alive

                        Five purple suns in the heat of the day
                        shine down on the vast kingdom below
                        Knight loves Young Maiden and steals her away
                        to a place where crystal rivers flow

                        Alone in the clearing their sighs intertwine
                        with the rising heat of their actions
                        A loving embrace, a deeply felt kiss
                        an explosion of desire and passions

                        But the Kingdom shall not remain so blisffully safe
                        For the Enemy creeps and dangers unfold;
                        A midnight raven furiously cries in vain
                        for the Knight to awaken and Take Hold...

                        Firey battles rage upon the Castle
                        Warriors and soldiers march into Hell
                        The Knight hears the call from his Brothers-in Arm
                        and bids his Young Maiden farewell

                        Crying out for his valient and loyal dark steed
                        in a voice commanding wind, fire and rain
                        Silver shield raised up high and sword touching the sky
                        the brave Knight rides to restore Hope again

                        His galloping horse travels like lightening and speed
                        taking paths through the clouds and the thunder
                        Upon reaching his home he falls to his knees
                        for most of the great walls have crumbled

                        The Enemy silently awaits him near
                        his sly grin and red eyes glowing bright
                        The Knight feels his evil and searches him out
                        in the place where his father lost the Great Fight

                        Angry eyes meet determined ones
                        Fog rolls in and darkens the land
                        Enemy amd Knight begin the challenge to see
                        who will destroy or save this haven in the end

                        Gleaming tips of powerful swords meet and strike with
                        malice
                        Knight is well trained and has strength from the gods
                        and the unwavering will to save his palace

                        Losing in the end with a look and a curse
                        the Enemy falls to the ground
                        The Young Maiden and village emerge from their hiding
                        and praise their Knight's victory in song

                        But the Knight was cut deep from his mission
                        and needs breath for eternal sleep
                        Though his good deeds and protection did well
                        His own life to give he can't keep

                        He looks one last time at his beautiful Maiden
                        with a soft smile and promise to love
                        She cries for what might have been in the future
                        A final kiss and his soul flies away like a dove

Girlfriends

Like beats to my heart
                        you stay within my world
                        I feel you in my thoughts
                        your voices always heard

                        Your friendship is engraved
                        upon the walls of my soul
                        Always I am with you
                        whether day or night seems cold

                        Feel me in these words
                        for my love will never cease
                        I will see you someday
                        and we will find our peace

How Long Will You Love Me

How long will you love me
                        She constantly would ask
                        He'd laugh it off
                        or roll his eyes
                        She was always wondering things like that

                        How long will you love me
                        she asked him one starry night
                        He pushed back her hair from her face
                        and commented on her eyes

                        They walked along
                        past the woods
                        even right by the place they'd met
                        She couldn't understand why
                        he hadn't answered her yet

                        How long will you love me
                        She quietly sighed as she slept
                        He stood so still
                        by her bedside
                        and hands in face he wept

                        Her death was growing closer
                        he could not say goodbye
                        He had to tell her something
                        and he began to try...

                        I will love you for Eternity
                        I will love your soul, your heart
                        I will love you in the darkest times
                        I will love you near or far

                        She turned to him
                        but couldn't speak
                        to ask of him once more
                        He closed the blinds
                        tucked the blanket around her
                        and slowly shut the door

                        As he saw her spirit leave
                        he leaned in to give her a kiss
                        I will love you he whispered
                        my darling, only for as long...

                        as anything exists

The Firelily and Your Love

A Flower
                        so precious and rare
                        Petals to protect
                        Color to reflect
                        Scent to affect

                        A Love
                        so pure and real
                        Feelings too new
                        Thoughts too true
                        Words too few

                        Like the Firelilly
                        finds herself
                        inside the familiar home
                        So shall your love envelop us
                        wherever we shall roam

                        As it's said in Nature
                        Some pieces of her just live
                        And like your love
                        ask not the how or why
                        but accept it for what it is

Awaken

I looked out at the stars
                        they greeted me with a song
                        Singing a melody from our past
                        we've known it all along

                        They hinted to me of a year
                        full of promise and surprise
                        I stared at the dark night's mystery
                        and began to see your eyes

                        I felt warmth and comfort
                        from a familiar place I know
                        You seemed to be calling me
                        from somewhere I cannot yet go

                        I smiled and thought to myself
                        this could be the time
                        We will open our eyes and awaken
                        and discover what we must find

You Should Know

With one look
                        I knew you'd never leave me
                        Hold me now
                        and don't let go
                        You are the strength
                        that will guide me
                        It's time that you should know

                        In my dreams
                        I hear you whisper softly
                        Come with me let's run away
                        How my heart would go
                        if you would ask me
                        But my mind needs to stay

                        I can't breathe
                        should I close my eyes
                        I can't speak
                        Can I feel you near
                        The sand falls through
                        the hourglass of redemption
                        and you conquer all of my fear

New Year 2005

Like the brilliant moon disappearing
                        into the beautiful dawn
                        We sit quietly and reflect
                        upon the Year that has gone

                        A new and strong Resolution
                        we quickly make in haste
                        Another long frozen memory
                        we dare not put to waste

                        Feeling the probable Promise
                        a New Day seems to bring
                        We feast and live upon a dream
                        like fairytale Kings and Queens

                        Our minds create the fantasy
                        and the forthcoming Future does hold
                        all of the unplayed stories
                        beating hearts have never told

                        Look to the endless sky
                        and remember the forgotten Past
                        Another time with certainty goes
                        It sadly never can last

                        Feel the soft breeze blowing
                        upon your untouched skin
                        Let go of every Yesterday
                        and welcome Tomorrow in

                        Possibilities swirl
                        inside our Universe
                        We take so much for granted
                        and think little of it's worth

                        Stop and hold so precious
                        the Rose that he wrote about
                        Take caution against sorrow
                        Relinquish the fear and doubt

                        Life fades so quickly
                        if we are slow to take heed
                        There will be Love and kind rewards
                        for each and every good deed

                        Fear not the unknown
                        for therein lies our Cause
                        Focus not on mishaps
                        dismiss the burdens or flaws

                        Open your eyes to the Grand Scheme
                        it's ending has not been stated
                        Cherrrish the gift that's been given to us
                        to be unconditionally appreciated

                        Hunger for the satisfaction
                        a willful Anticipation will allow
                        Thirst for the knowledge of desires
                        they are inseperably connected somehow

                        We take these truths and blessings
                        to redefine ourselves
                        Close the book on Before and
                        After remains on our shelves

                        True as one good Soul once said
                        every end brings a new beginning
                        Happy New Year my Beloved Friends
                        and here's to our infinite endings

Circle of Friends

An exceptional place
                        everyone is welcome
                        pain is felt deeply
                        yet comfort is near
                        Quiet your breathing
                        hear the hearts beating
                        beautiful soul sounds
                        come alive in here

                        You are not alone friend
                        hold someone's hand
                        fear not what you see or what you know
                        We have all been this lost
                        felt desperate and hopeless
                        not quite sure which way to go...

                        Feel safety and comfort
                        from the light and the stars
                        believe that some friends are so true
                        Watching from shadows above and below
                        We remain here to guide and protect you

I Love You More

I love you more
                        Than I did before
                        I realized it
                        When I had to let you go
                        We can’t remain
                        In a place so hidden
                        Where no one else can know

                        I hold you close
                        In my dreams at night
                        And look into your eyes
                        I feel your presence everywhere
                        From the greener grass
                        To the dark grey skies

                        Stranger things have happened my love
                        Than waiting year after year
                        It’s worth the slipping sands of time
                        To be patient until you are near

                        I can be who I must
                        And tend to my world
                        With you in my heart and mind
                        I can live with hope,
                        Find strength in the future
                        I’m only one step behind

                        It isn't goodbye
                        It isn't forever
                        It's a promise
                        A revolving door…
                        I will always be waiting
                        To be in your arms...

                        I love you more
                        Than I did before

Dreaming Through A Window

I went everywhere to find you
                        feeling so alone
                        I slept for years to feel you
                        went dreaming on my own

                        I waited by that field
                        somewhat near the door
                        I heard a sweet voice - loving me
                        from somewhere I'd been before

                        I looked in and my eyes beheld
                        such a beautiful sight
                        A place where we remained together
                        united in day and night

                        There were four of them gathered 'round
                        plus one and...and still another
                        Two young were sisters like in face
                        Four small of them were brothers

                        Another would come soon
                        to make the perfect tree
                        But most...I remember your eyes
                        a gaze so lovingly...

                        Home felt like something above
                        the yearning I felt when awoken
                        I dared not walk back to reality
                        my heart eternally broken

                        It's quiet now again
                        by three minutes and maybe more
                        I lie awake and feel you here
                        still standing by the door

                        Never will I give up my love
                        on finding that special place
                        I may turn my eyes from the window
                        if only to see your face

                        I'm ready to close my eyes again
                        the night's lullabye brings you near
                        Your whispering words of comfort and love...

                        I will always be here

Inspiration

Inspiration

                        A breeze
                        whispering my name
                        from somewhere I've been
                        beckoning me to follow it home

                        A warmth
                        dancing upon my cheeks
                        from a smile I know
                        allowing my heart to open

                        Your laughter
                        filling my soul
                        from within my shared memories
                        reminding me

                        to dream...
                        to love...
                        to hope...

                        to live

The Rose

I gazed upon a rose in May
                        and watched its colors fade each day
                        A petal lost by a gentle summer breeze
                        another taken by October's sneeze
                        Over the seasons I watched it worn
                        wilted, shriveled and somewhat torn
                        Winter's frost turned into snow
                        and ne're I wondered where the flower did go
                        For though its appearance went away...

                        The beauty of that rose did stay

Loving You

Knowing you
                        A warm inviting smile
                        Feeling you
                        A strong close embrace
                        Touching you
                        A fast burning fire
                        Holding you
                        A safe special place
                        Hearing you
                        A calm gentle kiss
                        Believing you
                        A dreamlike desirable bliss
                        Seeing you
                        A hopeful possible wish
                        Loving you...

Experiment

I sat alone tonight
                        quietly and thoughtfully
                        and yet...nothing in my mind
                        kept my thoughts company
                        to predict what I might find

                        I closed my eyes

                        Inhaling as deeply as I exhaled
                        I felt the light surrounding my heart
                        My head felt dizzy and my body felt weak
                        motionless, still
                        like a masterpiece work of art

                        For what seemed lifetimes
                        the sphere appeared as if by magic
                        warm, comforting, colorful and
                        bright - even to my blind sight
                        and still...a hint of something tragic

                        Was I failing the experiment already
                        I felt my hands slipping -then came a whisper
                        "Let your soul break free"
                        The lighted orb began to glow
                        and I felt you watching me

                        Does this make sense
                        Are you feeling my excitement
                        Is it real and amazingly true
                        I could hear your smile and see your laughter
                        I could feel my hands touching you...

                        Sometimes I was flying
                        high into the clouds
                        grasping stars beyond my reach
                        The ball became the sun and moon
                        Illuminating the things we will see

                        I opened my eyes

                        Content with the world
                        safe in your thoughts
                        our minds became one and I knew
                        this could be the start of the place that we need
                        to live and love -
                        just me and you

After

Anticipation
                        brings me closer
                        Promises from some dream
                        mirror my reality

                        Laughter
                        brings me home
                        Comfort from your love
                        surrounds my hope

                        Whispers
                        bring me to passion
                        Caresses from miles away
                        leave me breathless

                        Silence
                        brings me to safety
                        Embraces from an angel
                        keep me secure

                        After

The Woods

I feel the calm
                        and I know you are here
                        I walk alone
                        no more my dear
                        Your strength for us
                        has set me free
                        To this I vow
                        to love, honor and cherish Thee

                        Be not at war
                        with impossible thoughts
                        for what we hold
                        will never be lost
                        Take my hand love
                        together hardships withstood
                        Hold precious these days...

                        Our walks in the woods

November Thoughts

I can imagine you leaning back
                        sigh of content
                        comfortable
                        relaxed
                        eyes closed…
                        listening to every word as always

                        I feel your hand
                        gently tracing mine
                        soft skin under strong hands
                        not absentmindedly -
                        always with a purpose
                        Strokes leading upward
                        Caresses leading downward...

                        Every touch
                        still met with an ache
                        Despite being miles apart,
                        every word
                        deeply felt and
                        forever cherished.
                        Connected for awhile
                        time willingly disappears
                        distance becomes extinct
                        moments turn into sweet memories
                        To last me another day,
                        Another dream.

                        Your soft laugh
                        makes my heart race
                        Your voice grows husky
                        calming my tremble
                        Even before I ask the questions
                        I know you feel me -
                        You know I miss you.

                        Waking up secure again
                        Feeling such certainty in the breeze
                        Of a November's end
                        I can't say where or when
                        And yet still knowing
                        As my smile spreads slowly...
                        I’ll see you soon

Sunday, October 3, 2004

Grief

His heart is heavy
                        but I am near
                        The dove in his sadness
                        quick to appear...

                        With words of comfort and
                        thoughts of light
                        I embrace his pain
                        throughout the night

                        By his side I will stay
                        caressing his sorrow
                        keeping grief at bay
                        my strength he can borrow

                        Give it to me, my love
                        I will carry it for you
                        until the weight has been lifted
                        and tears have passed through

                        I will breathe light and comfort
                        and peace from above
                        You will not despair
                        for you have my love

The Butterfly

The Butterfly's wings
                        light like the wind
                        carry me home
                        to a distant friend

                        Warmed and loved
                        and completely at ease
                        I await the Angel
                        upon my knees

                        Take this ice cold fear
                        and send me to the skies
                        Relinquish my pain
                        silence my cries

                        I call to the Butterfly
                        to carry me home
                        and help me to believe
                        that I am not alone

                        I struggle to fly
                        for wings take us higher
                        Give me strength for the fight
                        and answer my desire

                        My mind is a blessing
                        for it feels your kiss
                        My heart is an ache
                        for our heavenly bliss

                        The Butterfly's wings
                        flutter silently
                        as I follow the path
                        into our Eternity

Beginning

Lifting my spirits
                        beyond the clouds
                        seems to be your playful game

                        Holding my hand
                        with such tenderness
                        before you know my name

                        I dreamed of you in colors
                        that were painted by my heart
                        Trust in me and this can be
                        Our Beginning...

                        And we shall never part