Favor

I wanted you to know
                        it is not you it is me
                        This endless pain and confusion my own
                        it just took me longer to see

                        I've given it meticulous thoughts
                        can't explain why it has to end
                        Despite the rules and mortal barriers
                        people just can't understand

                        The feelings were my completely my fault
                        Desire crept up too fast
                        You must understand it is only buried
                        from love for you in the past

                        I know it sounds absurd
                        to open hearts and minds
                        but the fact remains I remember this pain
                        from another place and time

                        So I beg of you this favor
                        the next lifetime you find me near
                        Walk past me please --don't even give me the chance
                        then I will never have to fear

                        Losing you every lifetime
                        tears my soul apart
                        and no one but you
                        believes the truth
                        that is written in our hearts

                        I can't bear to think of anything
                        for EVERYTHING carries your voice
                        I want to wake up and find it a dream
                        but now I have no choice

                        I want to end this hope
                        that my sadness will disappear
                        but I know in my Soul
                        I want to grow old
                        with you in my arms so near

                        These are only words from my heart to yours
                        desperately trying to convey
                        the love I will always have for you
                        and the way I feel today

                        No I will never forget
                        I cannot bury feelings that remain
                        I just want something to wake up my Soul
                        and relinquish me from this pain

                        There's no way to end these thoughts
                        I will forever continue to try
                        to imagine us on the steps looking up
                        under the night's starry sky

                        Wanting is just not enough
                        but I bow my head silently
                        Please hear every whisper from me to you

                        and sometimes remember me