Gnat

Don't you ever want to sit
and smile and reminisce
about the life born out of love
the first touch, the last kiss?
There was nothing bitter written
or said about your life
Most of my words lately
are for someone else full of cathartic spite
My friend who cannot speak right now
or even feel her heart
But of course you would think the worst of me
and aim your poisoned dart...
As if I'm not a strong woman?
facing losses you can't imagine
Accidents, deaths and heartbreaks
that you'll never even know that have happened
Since you last said nothing to me
I haven't lost my passion
or my will to live and breathe
through another painful contraction
Or my nerve to finally say
I was being one hundred percent sincere with you!
You found your soul's reprieve
You found love and peace for two
At least I shared my joy
as bittersweet as it was
At least I shared a boy
that precious gift from above
At least I included you despite
the secrets you kept from me
Now I know where I rank among your dislikes
and your long lost memory:
Some annoying gnat buzzing around your ear
forever trapped by irony