Karma

You son of a bitch
taking him away
to the lies and deception
you introduced that day!
Why can't you just be a real friend
and keep the lone wolf cravings at bay?
I hope fate cashes in
when true love finally looks your way
and you lose someone to drugs
like I just did today

You son of a bitch
promising not to leave me --
then sneaking away again
pretending not to decieve me
Insulting me to the core
not bothering to retrieve me
by asking total forgiveness
for the lies you told to mislead me
and now I have nothing
but six broken hearts that are bleeding

Splinters

Don't say I love you
as you're walking out the door
Those words mean nothing to me
I don't believe you anymore
You whispered them into my ear
when we were fucking on the floor
So don't say I love you
as you're walking out the door

Don't say I miss you
five years or days from now
You'll break my heart into pieces
that should be your vow
Not promises that fade
"I'm ready to move forward now..."
Don't say I miss you
five years or days from now

Don't say I'm sorry
for all the pain you caused
The selfish beast you claim to have tamed
has drawn its bloody claws
And all that's left is shreds of me
splintering in the pause
Don't say I'm sorry
for all the pain you caused

Don't say anything
you're good at doing this
Don't say goodbye
or leave me with a kiss

I always stood by your side
through all of the fucking bullshit
Just walk out of the door
and forget all of it

Breathe

Without your smoke and mirrors
you would be lost
but it's a dangerous addiction
look how much it cost
Not just in bank fees
and all-consuming shame
but in ruining your self worth
tarnishing your name
All that you worked for
(or supposedly -- who really knows)
is gone the very second
you breathe through your nose

Insult

You don't work
Therefore the money isn't yours
I don't think you could have insulted me more!
Add up every last thing
I've bought since we met
Sell each one at full price
or one hundred dollars more
and I swear to you -- I bet
you could never afford
to pay what I'm worth
or hire me --that's for sure
Priceless is my paycheck
for all of my hard work
My ego has been hurt
self dignity on the floor
Sometimes your mean spirit
is too much for me to endure
You don't work
Therefore the money isn't yours...

Pink

My heart can't find the words to express
my overwhelming joy and happiness
I keep waiting for the perfect inspiration to write
but it came to me while looking into your eyes tonight
Though you deserve something more profound and deep
these words are only yours to hear and keep:
I know we will hit the crossroads someday
where you take what you've learned and go away
But in the quiet of this moment I whisper with a kiss
My world is complete now that you exist

*Dedicated to my daughter

Zen

I traced the words around the page again
my fingers touching every noun and verb
It brought me to my favorite place of zen
You just don't know the power of your words
How every note and song reverberates
inside my soul, within my heart and mind
Reminding me of plans that we would make
and how we danced inside a perfect rhyme
I followed every tear, each memory
and found that some were better left alone
But finally, I rested on the scene
Where you walked in and I embraced you home...
I know I am out of your mind and sight
but your words gave me such comfort tonight

Hiding

I swept the floors from front to back again
the dust and dirt were clinging to the cracks
But stubbornly I redirected them
into a waiting pan beside the trash
I swear I heard them screaming, protesting
they had a right to be there just because
life becomes disorganized, disgusting
so they find refuge underneath the rug
It's not their fault for hoping, lingering
cloaked beneath secret yarns no one will see
until I show up and sleepless, stumbling
uncovering their true identity
They hide out in an unsafe place with hope
But I can see them in between thick ropes